smile and the world thinks you're high on something

you know nature conspires against you when the weekend is constantly plagued with dust/sand storms. why weekends? go figure. bad for business as well. im not a picnic-person but i am a take-a-long-walk person.

anyhoos, was out on thursday night. formal affair it was. and i thought it was going to be a dry weekend. not so. and i slow danced. again. i am so sure that one day i will step on a womans toes and crush them. you see, i cant dance. damn. women take advantage of guys who are inebriated.


it came time to take stock, where we are as opposed to where we were a couple of years ago. some of us have moved ahead. some have remained, sometimes out of lack of any clear direction brought upon not by themselves but rather by guiding force(s). it leaves a bitter taste. there is support for some but none for another when all are deemed equal(??). fuck you! there is no such thing, and to say there exists such a state conceals a very obvious color and gender bias. that one is not ever capable of committing any errors and the blame must always fall on those who do not belong. well then pardon me for not ever wanting to be part of (y)our society.

what is truly sad is that most of "us" want to be part of it - to belong. part of a mass. where you lose your identity and then you want to impose your ideas and ways. look its very simple, since we have free will and freedom to choose, let me choose what i want to do and when i want to do it.




"REBEL SCUM"

4 seasons, nah......make it 6/7 or something like that in one day

the sky is falling!
the sky is falling!!

and it didnt....
but what did happen was niiccccccccccceeeeeeee.

mother nature unleashed a little bit yesterday evening. just a few minutes and damage like nobody's business.

first came the dark clouds. saw that coming.
then came the lightning. ooohhhhh definitely saw THAT!!!
then came the dust. saw that coming.
then came the winds. saw that coming.
then came the absolute sandstorm. couldnt see hand two inches in front of face. didnt see that. couldnt see that.
then the hail. definitely didnt see that coming.
then the flooding of the streets.
all this in 10 minutes.
and then just like that it was over.

headin back to my room and all along the broken path it looked like cluster bomb attack. i made my way to the udupi joint, and i didnt think they were gonna serve food. glass all over the place. well dearies, when there is that kind of pressure build up on the outside, open windows/doors to equalise the pressure on the inside. dont and you will have glass or light walls caving. so dinner at udupi was out of the question.

chinese wok. they looked ok. no damage. so i went and i ate. then the girl tells me the building had a water tank tip over and flood the roof and the stairway. oh well, the noodles were good and nobody got injured or died. then the girl decided she needed someone to talk to. and i listened, but did she have to tell me of all things some females are subjected to and have to do in order to survive? hmmm.

there was the usual debris like antennae, dish antennae, glass, tin roof, cars that had holes punched in them(due to flying metal bits n pieces), cats.....

mother nature. for all her ferocity, so rocks!!

clone encounters for the ra kind

dozed off a couple of times in the workshop/introductory session yesterday at work.

and for the first time ever, i had absolutely nothin, yesssssss, NOTHIN TO DO AT WORK YESTERDAY!!!!!!

my dear colleagues decided to impart(unleash is more the word) all of their infinite wisdom today. was given tips - unanimous it was - as follows:

1)my chin beard must go. so i havent let a razor touch my chin in six years. trimmed the beard regularly.....but its only been 6 years......damn! ok will give it a try. this had better work.

2)must smile(i do smile, on the inside)

3)must get more colors in my wardrode(i think its just about pefect right now. hmmm, do shades of black count?)

4)spike my hair(maybe use it as a puncturing weapon thingie)

5)be optimistic(that i am already. my optimistic nature tells me the glass needs to be filled so that i dont go thirsty. my optimistic and positive nature tells me we're doomed. im positive about that)

6)must buy ferrari(only one? im supposed to impress members of the opposite sex)



on a different note, it does feel nice, if nothing else, that people actually consider your work. they may not say it out loud or seem to not acknowledge, and that can be a real downer, but i reckon if timed is great for the ego and self belief system that most of us rely on. sometimes you have one of those daze and then murphy's laws decide to kick in to add a sore in an already itchy place.

then there are moments like yesterday wherein it makes all the madness worth it. fleeting moment, but worth it nonetheless. i ll take it. just like i ll take that last brownie. mmmmmm. brownie good.