i see hope

in the words of sarge - "todaaaay is a good day to go to church"(the words in italics can be replaced with whatever you want)

woke late. showered. picked up my bag and ran. wasnt gonna miss the 12.30 service!! and it was already 12.05. 10 minutes later and no cab in sight."thats it, im gonna miss the 12.30 service".

then came a bus. "public transportation so rules!!!!!" reached the church vicinity in 12 minutes."niiiiicee!!" the area around the church is under heavy construction. as i was makin my way to church suddenly noticed almost all access routes were blocked off. there was just the one access way.

"12.32" and to get to that i would have to go all the way round which would take a lot of time. there was this group of ladies just behind me. we stood there for a few moments. then one of them climbed down the trench and walked on the exposed pipes, climbed out. they helped each one out. finally i made my way across. as i reached the end, i suddenly saw this hand reach out. i looked up to see the first lady who made her way across . she smiled and helped pull me up.

i have never in my life been offered help like this by a lady.

so there was nothin that was goin to stop me from attending service today.

it was more than worth it. of all days today it was worth it.

ramble ramble

its been a long month and it still isnt ready to quit.

ran into a friend today after a long time. havent seen her in months and i run into her a few times today. she looked beautiful as ever. and the best part she still retains her craziness which is so her.

didnt feel like doing much at work today, it was a bit of a slow day. by my standards. received maybe around 18-19 phonecalls, only 68 in the inbox, fixed some issues, got shipments weve been waiting for into central warehouse, learned how to do a smiley trick, was very nice to turkish delight, laughed out loud and a few times, smoked like it was the end of the world, had lunch alone(for the most part), decided to shoot myself if we persist with a certain supplier, dreading doin laundry this weekend(i think this is how hills start out), india did well enuff on the first day.....

the cave is very pleasant today. not many people in which is just the way i like it. the music is good. that reminds me, for those into indie meuzaac, check this out. he is an old friends lil bro(who aint so lil anymore). crisp sound, and you feel the beatles come straight thru, moby hints....best you check it out yourself.

you kno when sometimes you sittin there starin into space, BAM! it hits you. you shouldnt have left the window open on account of the dust storm. hmmm. early this week, decided to let off some steam and i walked. it was a couple of hours later that i realised i had walked bout 13kms. it felt good. i need to start doing this some more.

theres these 3 idiots sitting in front of me. well these 3 amigos are all picking their nasal cavities like its a competition. damn, i guess theyre just like roadkill. u wanna take ur eyes off but u cant.

ooooo. hottie!!! yeah!! at least i dont have to look at the NPNA(to the uninitiated thats Nose Pickers Non Anonymous) candidates anymore. PHEW!! she comes in now and again. now its time to look cool. straigthen back a bit, no leanin back into comfy comfy seat, drink coffee without slurping.....who am i kiddin? i aint gonna talk to her. im one of those really shy types. yup that i am.


last word: if u aint me, u just aint.ooooo boy!

to all those opposed....bite me!!

its been beautifully cold. single digits for the most part. i like.

thursday is dress down day. the day we work dressed casual. wore a sweat shirt and sand/beige cargos. meaning i wasnt dressed in my usual dark attire. and i was also very very nice to people yesterday(for a change, wasnt my growling morose self).

then it began.
"oh ur dressed in light colored clothes today, awww" {i had an answer to that but i held back}
"i see ur not wearing black" {excuse me fucktard but i just wanted to wear my sweatshirt)
"see, u look better when ur not wearing black" {die die die!!}
"..........."..........

all of that made me want to throw up. okayyyyyyyyy, enuff of this nice to everyone crap, and then i was my old self again. it felt better. a lot better. and i had a colleague laffing when i announced my plans for taking over the world (notetoself:destroy her first).


gonna watch zeitgeist tonite.

10 days on

havent blogged since sometime last year....and that has sooo changed my life, not!

the year started out with me being very attentive to my liver(and i dont think ive done it any permanent damage!!)hehe.

if this is just a primer for what the year has to offer, then i dont kno if im gonna see the year thru. whatever, aint goin down without a fight!!! so bring it!

other than work related disasters, life has been pretty much the same. u see, after work, i get back to my cell and change into my superhero costume - jeans, t shirt, my gloves and heavy duty jacket(on account of the really really really cold weather). it hasnt dropped to zero yet, at least not in the city. back to my superhero gig, so after work, and once ive changed into my superhero costume i prowl the streets for something to eat and i found this place last night. 50 metres away and i can smell my food burning(and it was burnt), knew he poured me the wrong drink and found one piece of something that was supposed to be chicken in my chicken soup. it is a place where people go to clog up their arteries, get heartburn and possibly destroy the lining of their stomach. yes, sometimes we must eat at places like this. why? simply because the food actually tastes good. no brown bread, all greasy and burnt(not too much tho) and if youre lucky they just might add a lot of salt. this is the stuff of life.

we have but one life to live and do we want to live without having
that really greasy cheeseburger,
that soft drink,
those greasy salty fries,
those deep fried onion rings,
all that white bread,
red meat,
whole milk
smokes
alcohol
coffee with full cream milk and 8 sugars(at least)
science fiction and horror
.......


sometimes one questions their existence and when left with no choices (i always see one with finality absolute), is there any need to go on? and if everything, and i mean EVERYTHING, goes wrong - what then? and you cant crawl inside that little hole and hide yourself away even for a short moment - what then? i think i got MY answer yesterday. God help me......and He did.