sometimes one doesnt realise there are people that care.
i am constantly pushing people away and today, when i finally rolled out of bed in the afternoon, i saw all those missed call, those messages....
i need to break down that wall and not be so nihilistic, i suppose, in my approach to the rest of the world.
some years ago i decided to re-write faerie tales. according to VIM, "what really happened"
The Faerie Tale Archive
Tales rewritten, untold and general works. First written in the last quarter of the year 2000.
Little Red Riding Hood
Red was almost done with the jigsaw puzzle. "15 more pieces and I've done it" she thought to herself.
Just then her mother called out to Red. She ran downstairs to find out what her mother wanted. "Take this bluberry pie and these chocolate donuts, and deliver them to Granma. You know how she loves my blueberry pies. Now run along...." said Red's mother.
The path to Granma's house was through a beautiful forest. Red was soon on her way, basket of goodies and all. Along the way the way she came across a little wooden box. Inside the box there was a bracelet and a little book. This bracelet was nothing like she had ever seen before. She put on the bracelet and began to read the book. What Red had in her hands was a time travel device. "WOW!! I'm going to have so much fun with this later" she thought to herself.
As Red skipped merrily along , out of nowhere (actually the tree in front of her) sprang a wolf. This was a mean looking wolf (now that the pork chops were over and done with, he was hungry again). He licked his lips and moved closer to Red. She knew she would not be able to outrun the wolf, so she quickly set her new found time travel device to the past.
With a push of the button she disappeared. Red tele-transported herself to the Jurassic period. Only to appear in the path of a hungry T-Rex, which wasted no time in gobbling her up.
"Now, I have to look for something else to eat. Hmmm, there's this little old lady who lives all by herself not far from here" thought the wolf.
MORAL:If you are going to time travel, look closely at the time dial before pushing any buttons.
its been one of those daze.
my to-do list looked good end of the day, most everything crossed out. im gettin better or maybe the world is slowin down for me???!!! ??? hehehehe, yeah right!!
had a supplier meeting. poor guy doesnt realise there will be no future orders. dude buy me an m6 and maybe, just maybe, we'll talk!! seriously tho, they cant mess about and think theyll get away wit it. aint gonna happen. damn, im now a corporate clone, a f****n corporate dealer. now that aint good. things i dont wanna be and im slowly turnin into. soon to be corporate vampire. "blood, blood, i want blood!!!"{in ur best transylvanian accent}
after gettin back from work today, i sat there staring at the beautiful(?) blank wall. kyuss playin in the back. and im swayin to some stoner, some 60s n 70s rock. hey krashers, believe you me, if u just have a listen to what i got now, u gonna trip like its the end of the world.
i have one thought that takes centre stage now and again....should i leave the land of camel jockeys and try workin in india? perhaps ill give it a shot, hmmm, do i really want to?
its funny when youre alone and look for company and dont find any and then there are those times when you want to be alone and company is plenty.
the great economic divide is something that really bothers.
poverty is not so nice now, is it?
is it?
then we have love...so blind...so twisted. which hurts more then? 
paul valery "love is being stupid together"
hehehehe.
i keep receiving these er, really great emails. each letter of the alphabet means something. and instructions to boot!!!
Instructions: What you do is find out what each letter of your name means.
Then connect all the meanings and it describes YOU.
PS : If you have double or triple letters, just count the meaning once.
Descriptions:
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - You are not judgmental.
I - You are always smiling and making others smile.
J - Jealously
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break.
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V - You have a very good physique and looks.
W - You like your privacy.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
Z - You're always fighting with someone
now think adolf hitler.
its the twilight zone of the company. where u meet the strange, the new, the unexpected.
ive met someone who has walked barefoot in the snow.
ive met someone who has used a blow dryer to heat up their body.
ive met someone who has pushed the police around because they could, ok fine it was under the influence.
ive met someone who has nearly decapitated the paramedics who were trying to help out.
the smoking room, its not about reducing ones lifespan.....its more than that. yeah right!!!
i want to write. need to. but when i look at the keyboard, its a mess. sue me i got scrambled eggs for brains. when u have to deal with 6,475,989.5 issues at the same time, there is a tendency to blow a fuse somewhere. and my blank stare isnt workin anymore. (damn! zombie tactics failing. must find something new, something effective). theyre on to me.
and because im in one of those moods again....
jump of a tall building
punch someone in the back of the head
large cheese burger with fries, onion rings, cheese cake, cookie, a donut, slice of pepperoni pizza
shoot launderer for losing another t shirt
buy more socks
love those new jeans
maybe go back "home" and work there
scream
visit new zealand
almost out of detergent
must finish 3 chapters of book im tryin to write
did i send out the documents???
JC (and its not the Big J) told you, listen to the rod, told u good things would happen
a higher wall
havent been to the avenues in a while
scream
chopa jo = chopa joler
she is so hot but i see her just once a week,hmmm
must grunt more
start readin books again
grateful for dinner
need to get me one of those
mutate
scream
CD thinks im like homer simpson
cohesive
growl
stupid white wall
muanki girls baby talk is the highlight of the week
ache
numb
lynyrd skynyrd
jerry cantrell
the red
"i've been changin' but you'll never see me now"
"its hard to keep from fallin out"
kyuss
yucca
monster
nightmare
void
no slog shots
"i'll be back"
i miss holdin hands
damned trains
damned accident
"everybodys goin to the party have a real good time"
on my way back from work, when the all too familiar message tone sounds off.
im reading and then i wonder why?
is this all a sign?? hm. hahaha??
we live, we die. lately, ive been receiving way too many messages. cardiac arrest, cancer, car accidents....im losing all my old friends. one by one. and then there were none.
and so when my chest hurts, i wonder if i should kick my nicotine habit. but then who wants to live forever? who wants to live?
as i punch this out, im listening to simple lies. there are a few lines in the song that make sense absolute.......
in death and in distance and time
you walked into my life made that quintessential change
you taught me, you accepted me for all that i was
all that i am
i am eternally grateful, i think of the times spent together
i will not get those times back, memories so distant
some beginning to fade, some so sharp and clear
i smile a wry smile, time the healer is also time the distorter
you left,
some sudden, some with warning
i understood one thing, they get taken away
they get taken away those you get close to
the week has been tumble dryer. ramadan starts today and working hours are shorter. which means more sleep.
peace out.
bite me!!(and yes, im still angry)
time:does it matter?
she"long time no see, where have you been?"
me"right here, just work"{can i be anywhere else}
she"are you avoiding me?"
me"no no why do say that?"{like the plague}
she"no messages, no calls, no emails....how's the blog?"
me"like i said, work. the blog's good"
she"when you planning to travel again?"
me"dunno"{like id tell u}
me"if u pay for my ticket n hotel stay....."
she"ha ha, ur so funny"
me"really now?"
she"what?"
me"are u goin to pay for my ticket....?"
she"ur serious??!!!??"
me"what do u think?"
she"im hoping ur not"
me"what, serious?"[i still havent smiled]
she"ur serious!!!"{shocked}
me"hardy har har, gotcha!!!"{damn there goes my ticket}
she"ha..ha"[kind of nervous laff]
she"u still go to DDs?"
me"there's no other place that'll have me"
she"hey why dont we go out sometime?"
me"really?u wanna go out with me?"{are u nuts???}
me"why??"
she"what do u mean why?"
me"i mean why?"
she"well if u dont want to...."
me{i dont want to}{why me?}
she"u dont want to!!!!!"
me"no its not that, its work"
she"dont use work as an excuse, u DO NOT work 24-7"
me"yeah i dont, but i get back kinda late, and im fried by that time"
she"excuses excuses"
me"er, yeah"
she[wide eyes]"ur an idiot!!"
me"yeah i am"
she[mouth open staring]
me"u gonna stand like that forever? look im an idiot who's fried after all that work. sue me"[irritated tone]
she"why do u talk that way to people?"
me"what are u talkin about? i only talk that way to u"
she[eyes so wide]
she"ur so rude"
me"that i am"
she"why do i even bother?"
me"yeah i wonder the same thing too"
she"guess i shudnt be talkin to u then?"
me"u guess?"
she"i cant believe the things ur saying"
me"whats hard to believe? u just heard it didnt u? u were standing right here when this conversation took place riiiigght?"
she"u r horrible"
me[sighing]"yes that too"
she"why do u do such things? why do u say such things?"
me"u ask stupid questions"
she"it's no wonder ur still single"
me{ahhh finally a comeback}
me"im single bcoz of people like u"
she"what do u mean by that?"[shes like really ticked off now]
me"actually nothing, i was bored and i just wanted some excitement. thank u very much."
she"is this a game to u?"
me"not a game, just wanted some excitement in this mundane existence"
she"ur not strange, ur just f***** weird"
me"not really. now if ur done....."
she"dont ever speak to me again"
me"if u insist"{like it matters, i didnt want to speak in the first place}
im such a charmer!!!
the weathers easin off.
the tremors felt over three weeks ago aint back with a bang (much to my disappointment)
the near car crash hasnt changed anything
ted goin on holiday didnt ease the pressure
and im pretty pissed off
Don't look at me like
I am a monster
Frown out your one face
But with the other
Stare like a junkie
Into the TV
Stare like a zombie
While the mother
Holds her child
Watches him die
Hands to the sky crying
Why, oh why?
'cause I need to watch things die
From a distance
Vicariously I, live while the whole world dies
You all need it too, don't lie
Why can't we just admit it?
Why can't we just admit it?
