sleep eludes. again.

the minds blank.

repelled by lifes polarity

hangover!!! nice term that.....oh well its the weekend, so its fine. ill recover.


finally got my little project done(but thats only part one of two). it took a while. and tho im not really happy with it, the bosses liked it. congratulations et al. said it will "increase my market value", to which i retorted,"it would be better if i get a salary increase", to which he said,"haha", to which i thought,"i wish i had a gun, haha".



some good things have happened this week. and for some strange reason, i didnt really care about some of them. i mean, yeah, theres relief but....priorities have changed. thats a given. ive understood for some years now that wants are just that, wants. but when a need is fulfilled and the feeling to it is numb, was it really a want all this time? nah, cuz, i analysed, then i dissected, then i put it into a jar and added water and shook it(just to see what would happen), then i took it out and squeezed the excess water out of it, then i left it to dry. conclusion - it was a need and i didnt care.



need a vacation. real soon. so in light of that, have a little break comin my way for a few days. no emails, no phones - just me, my liver, and a whole lotta movies. oh yeah some food too. my only hope is that the temperature drops by another 10 degrees by that time. so love winter. there is something so serene about it. and when its gets cloudy with that cold breeze blowing, yeah.....


whats a jambi?

blue skies, pink champagne, yellow fever, black death......yup the colors of life

hmmmmm, whatta week!!

busy busy busy!!! its hard convincing ops your bonus is on the line as well. look my bonus aint much, i mean i cant buy a car(cash down) or a bike. fine, an xbox is easy but whos gonna buy me that huge screen i want and those speakers?

its been a good two weeks on the personal level. things have looked up and i really like just being. and yes the whole world isnt out to get me, only some part of it is {blech}. guess ill have to use the force and make them stew in their own misgivings(read: monkey puke fermenting turd). hardy har har!

and im now as colorful as a rainbow regurgitating a totally unbalanced meal (read: kinda bright). seeing as i gots me some colored tees. not the usual fare namely black, actual variety - no drak greys even. damn think im turning into some sorta flutterby now(did u know an angry butterfly will chase you for at least a quarter mile). thats not going to stop me from getting a suitcase (i dont own a dresser/cupboard/wardrobe)full of black tees. heck, ive even found a place thats gonna print whatever i want on it. muhahahahaha! er, ahem. yeah. so now i dont have to tell people stuff, ill just point to my tee. being the good boy that i am, i dont intend on printing any obscenities. now that would be just down right, er, obscene(read: they would haul my butt to jail, shave my head)(hmm, i do have a steel cup now, so...). heck i can always mouth off profanity and gesture. i have a bit of know how there(read: i will swear at you till the day u die every chance i get, and yes, even in front of ur kids).

am so looking forward to the new week, for reasons i cannot mention, and work is going to be a challenge absolute (read: its gonna be a bitch).

till whenever.

settlin into life a day at a time

it has been.
pleasant.
and i have enjoyed.
it aint hard as it used to be. used to feel.



i recently got me self a steel mug. the kind one would see in prison movies, the prisoner rattling the thing against the cage. conspire with other prisoners, then beat up some prison guards and set things on fire and start a prison riot. and still hold the mug.

anyways im gonna take it to work (and in all likelihood embarass people who know me). cuz i like the mug and i think its cool. i always wanted one of those. now alls i need to do is ensure the thing gets dented.

yeah, im gonna drink starbucks coffee out of it. im already drinking out of it, but it aint no starbucks(hehehehe). hmmm, starbucks coffee actually sucks. it does. but then i needs me mornin cuppa. and well, we dont have to pay for it. so im cheap. sue me. they do however make a great hot chocolate. and if ur ever in the middle east - seef mall, bahrain makes the best hot chocolate. but the best hot chocolate in bahrain is at the airport, costas know how.

eid is finally here, which means back to full working daze. at least food is now available, so come thursday, i order food from the usual joint. around twelve i will get a call -
moi: hello
the voice: hello, fhoodh is cohme

my usual. lentil soup with irani flat bread and the chefs salad. for the unintiated(cant remember if ive mentioned this before and too lazy to go back to any early post to check) its dal fry with irani kubuz (which is kinda like a tandoori roti, but much bigger). the chefs salad is generally a mish mash of sliced n diced tomatoes, cucumbers, cabbage, carrots and some other green stuff. and im gonna quench my thirst with water, thats in the mug.


as i post this im lookin out the window and the sky is an amazing blue. its still quite warm outside. and im listenin to candlebox.

candlebox - into the sun. get the album. the band are back after ages and have still managed to retain quite a part of that early 90s alternative sound. theyve evolved. yes. but that bluesy feel is still there. nice familiarity goin there. im listening to the album. again. and drinkin out of that mug.

still here

accidents apart, lifes good!!

sunday, returning from work we went from crash, oh shit, everybody ok to it could have been worse. and it could have been.

thats another car crash i have walked away from. hmmm, that makes three.

VIM was upset. his car after all. but look we walked away and thats all that counts. better than getting stretchered away.

there isnt much happening here on account of ramadan. and the weather isnt helping any. having said that, today is better than it has been the last 24 days. the humidity has been constantly exceeding 90% and the heat is still on.

oh yes, thanks to my sister, i realise we are related to 61 people (and growing). its this family tree thing. and it is really quite interesting. i have relatives i had no idea even existed. heck, for the ones that do exist, i had no idea.

boo-yaa.