my name is shimotetokufu katanorimotoarimo / themvstheothers

the other day i called my colleague fat. shes not. in fact shes a poster child for what models look like. that got me thinking.

now im kinda thin. there are times when i get even thinner makin me a lamp post model (see i make fun of myself as well).

so back to my point, if someone who is not fat or thin (average joe) were to make fun of me, i would have to take it. but if the same person made fun of someone who is overweight, it would be frowned upon, makin average joe an insensitive person. for that matter if i were to make fun of a person who is overweight, that would put me in class of A1 jerk offs.

now if the overweight person were to make fun of me, i have to bear it. and this ok!? is it that only over weight people have some sort of social stigma attached to their girth? if some of them have psychological issues, medical issues - can't a person who is under weight have the same issues?

i cant gain weight easily, i lose it very easily tho. i cant help that my metabolism leaves me this way. i cant find clothes to ever fit right. too loose, too short(skinny n tall, thatd be me), oh yes and i cant find shoes to fit right even.

whats my point? er, i forget. the new flavor of the week at the donut shop made me forget.

on a easier note, i got somewhat plastered last nite. now that, laydeez n gennlemen is the right way to kick off a weekend.

and if u want to know what ur name is spelled like in japanese as in the title, use the table below. just received this in my inbox.

A - ka
B - tu
C - mi
D - te
E - ku

F - lu
G - ji
H - ri
I - ki
J - zu

K - me
L - ta
M - rin
N - to
O - mo

P - no
Q - ke
R - shi
S - ari
T - chi

U - do
V - ru
W - mei
X - na
Y - fu

Z - zi

judge not...er wait...judge away

fear not
for i am metal head
i come to you with hope
that you may understand
the meaning of all that rocks!!!

you know if God didnt want us to head bang, He wouldnt have given us necks.

when i was growin up(like i ever will!), mom used to give freedom to choose whatever. she always knew. instilled in us the difference between right and wrong. good and bad. times have changed. our need to survive supercedes any and all. what if someone does something wrong but the motive wasnt to cause harm but to help? are we allowed to be judgemental in our approach? what if all the reasons are not clear or correctly interpreted? by being judgemental have we not cast the first stone? it is also very easy to accuse one of being judgemental. inherently we all are.

i am frequently accused of being judgemental. perhaps i am. what if im not? i have a constant need to explain my questions or actions, because people wont get what im trying to say or do. why do i do this? to "fit in". fit into what? as long as i can fit into my fav pair of jeans, nothing shud matter, right?....right? we're constantly battling ourselves and others to prove a point, when the greater cause is ignored. what is the greater cause? somebody tell me cause i lost the plot somewhere along the way.

when most of us begin this journey, we seek. in these times of blantant advertising, can it be that we've missed what we were lookin for in the first place? and then we stray. is it accident? or the truth of greater forces? is it all a lie? what if the lie was the truth? the truth definitely lies in the lie. or is the other way round? why did i ever do what i did on that fateful day? did i not think of consequence? yes, i did. did it matter? yes it did. then why am i holding my head in despair? why am i fighting all that flows? why am i fighting myself?

when the fight ends, who will emerge victorious? i reckon, the truth that lay dormant in the darkness that the lie created.

"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity"

crash boom bang?? almost...

looking back, its been a restful week. got quite a few days off. when i finally got back to work, didnt really kno where to start. my dear inbox can be a nitemare.

last week saw a dragonfly, sign of spring. days are gettin warmer. me no likey. me want cold blistery winter .obviously aint gonna get unless i move up north. way up north. hmmm, will do that someday soon, i hope.

was challenged last week to go five days, not morose or morbid or say anything negative. i survived. perhaps i will continue. there may be something to this happy happy cotton candy thing here. at least till it makes me sick. and then i return to my mr. snide complex. muahahahahahaha!!!

i guess i got a lot to be thankful for this week. on wednesday after work, we're driving homeward and just before the sheraton roundabout - strange noise from vehicle. slow down. pull over and examine. the tyre was almost ripped to shreds. another three minutes later and we would have been on istiqlal street, doin maybe 120/130 kmph and if the tyre had decided to give way then, we wouldnt have seen our salaries.

is worth it then? work a whole month, try n spend time with family/friends/laptops, rush thru days in order to get work done.....to nearly not make it to see a paycheck. it is. tomorrow is the end of the world. do what u have to today. jujup wrote of mortality recently. hmmmm. perhaps a seer she is. perhaps a fluke. which ever, mortality and vanilla ice cream can be so similar. by itself so bland, but theres so much one can do with it.

tomorro i watch hot fuzz and the war of the worlds(1953).

lets go to plan b - ES this had better work!

i've already spent time in delirium

i have got an extra day off. which means a lot of sleep. so that puts me in a mood to take the world by the scruff of its neck and shake it all about. hmmmm.

i have been blessed with a lot of good food too off late. and though i've eaten enuff to feed a small nation, i have gained no weight whatsoever. my pants are still dropping and i dont really bother, as long as theres clean underwear, everythings ok!

kuwait celebrating its national day and liberation day - this can only mean one thing. two actually. one traffic is backed up all the way to kingdom come on certain arteries. the other, there are morons with snow foam cans waiting to spray passers by and cars with that gunk. it is an offence, but like really now, the police are gonna arrest these guys? not in this lifetime.

oh yes, being the shy guy i am {ahem}, theres this girl see. and i can talk so easily to her friends and i dont kno what to say to her. me??? me??!! i always have a thousand things to say but i dont kno what to say to her except "hey, h u doin? hows work? hmmm."

work - hmm that reminds me, our unit is now smaller. today is the last working day of ZAM. gonna miss her. yeah sure shes always screamin at me, but then if she wont who will. and theres BM, his last day with us is thursday. sure is gonna be a lot quieter around. oh well lifes like that and we march on, right? right?

i finally saw "the day the earth stood still" and for those who havent, please do. its a classic and what it has to say is quite simply, hmm, important. released 1951, me thinks this movie at that point of time, post WW2, really tried to push what could, in a manner of speaking, actualise. will wait for the 2008 release of the same to see if the movie makers can offer the same quality that the original did 57 years ago. also saw absolute cheese, "plan 9 from outerspace". 1959 release. this movie has been deemed one of the worst ever made. it is surprising though, that there are movies still released with the same set of substandards that plan 9 used.

there have been a few movies i have seen that have had a profound effect. one of the more recent ones being "v for vendetta". perhaps movies with dystopian themes are not very different from reality. it appeals due to the harsh lines/stance taken by society and the justice system(?). and it makes sense absolute. we're not far off.

meanwhile metalcore is the way to go.

see point 10

the past couple of weeks have seen tragedy, shock, wtf incidents and more.

hmmm more.

1) saw a toyota echo a few days back. yes the ugly toad on wheels. and it had a spoiler. i wonder, if that car does a 130 kmph is it gonna rip itself apart? i think i want one. not.

2) on my way to the smoking room, and i saw someone stare really hard at the screen. so much concentration. like wow. really. like wow. the screen was blank.
me"staring at the screen aint gonna make words appear....you have to punch them in"
she took a swipe at me. what'd i say?

3) and the award goes to.....my boss. for scaring the shit out of us. and then managing to scare the shit back into us. you have to hand it to him, he has a way with words. and his delivery was very very very good. damn ,when i grow up i wanna be just like him.

4) i had a new lust interest in life recently. and before it even began i got bored. in retrospect i should have just shot myself. 12 times. at least. what were you thinking??

5) mortal treason so f****n rulz! and if anybody wants to dispute that, do it in my presence and i will rip their tongue out and put it in a blender. then douse it with lighter fluid and set it on fire. i will proceed to collect the remnants and make the person eat it.

6) and yes!! i went shopping last week. got me a couple of shirts. guess the color and you can get me a free drink(dammit i want vodka). went shopping a week earlier as well. got me a pair of cargoes and jeans. guess the color again. and three tees. now guess the color of my new tees.

7) made a new friend and she needs to learn one of the most important things in life. she says she doesnt know how. burping is so essential!

8) saw the fucktards on tv earlier this week. nice, really nice. beating up people and destroying property. yes the thugs are back with a venegeance.

9) The loss of sound the silence waits
The loss of sight the darkness waits
The loss of touch the coldness waits
Don't think just move

10) when a guy says it looks fine, it looks fine!!