i was gonna but decided against it, so there.

yawn, burp, yawn, scratch male parts, yawn.....

today is the last of a series. a series of days off. been a while coming. and i got to sleep as planned. a lot. back to guantanamo tomorrow.

so i walk in to ye olde donut shoppe and then....i see it. the biggest croissant ever. the mother of all croissants. the girl behind the counter called it a turtle. well then a turtle that looks like a croissant is what i eat. muahahahaha! {ahem}



{i wonder if i can get the whole thing down in one bite.....nah, maybe when i was younger, the good ol daze when we wuz young.}

while i trip on kyuss, i look ahead to face yet another uninspiring week.

woo-hah. im so excited.

in other news, i have actually been asked to write lyrics for two albums. metal/death core even. hmmm. my non-existent writing skills now come to the fore. i have already got two songs down. 36 to go. at least.

MD round the corner. hope i gets me stuff so i can buy.

i shot an arrow into the air
it fell i know exactly where
the childrens' screams
were no mere dreams
with "love" from: the landmines of despair

my name is shimotetokufu katanorimotoarimo / themvstheothers

the other day i called my colleague fat. shes not. in fact shes a poster child for what models look like. that got me thinking.

now im kinda thin. there are times when i get even thinner makin me a lamp post model (see i make fun of myself as well).

so back to my point, if someone who is not fat or thin (average joe) were to make fun of me, i would have to take it. but if the same person made fun of someone who is overweight, it would be frowned upon, makin average joe an insensitive person. for that matter if i were to make fun of a person who is overweight, that would put me in class of A1 jerk offs.

now if the overweight person were to make fun of me, i have to bear it. and this ok!? is it that only over weight people have some sort of social stigma attached to their girth? if some of them have psychological issues, medical issues - can't a person who is under weight have the same issues?

i cant gain weight easily, i lose it very easily tho. i cant help that my metabolism leaves me this way. i cant find clothes to ever fit right. too loose, too short(skinny n tall, thatd be me), oh yes and i cant find shoes to fit right even.

whats my point? er, i forget. the new flavor of the week at the donut shop made me forget.

on a easier note, i got somewhat plastered last nite. now that, laydeez n gennlemen is the right way to kick off a weekend.

and if u want to know what ur name is spelled like in japanese as in the title, use the table below. just received this in my inbox.

A - ka
B - tu
C - mi
D - te
E - ku

F - lu
G - ji
H - ri
I - ki
J - zu

K - me
L - ta
M - rin
N - to
O - mo

P - no
Q - ke
R - shi
S - ari
T - chi

U - do
V - ru
W - mei
X - na
Y - fu

Z - zi

judge not...er wait...judge away

fear not
for i am metal head
i come to you with hope
that you may understand
the meaning of all that rocks!!!

you know if God didnt want us to head bang, He wouldnt have given us necks.

when i was growin up(like i ever will!), mom used to give freedom to choose whatever. she always knew. instilled in us the difference between right and wrong. good and bad. times have changed. our need to survive supercedes any and all. what if someone does something wrong but the motive wasnt to cause harm but to help? are we allowed to be judgemental in our approach? what if all the reasons are not clear or correctly interpreted? by being judgemental have we not cast the first stone? it is also very easy to accuse one of being judgemental. inherently we all are.

i am frequently accused of being judgemental. perhaps i am. what if im not? i have a constant need to explain my questions or actions, because people wont get what im trying to say or do. why do i do this? to "fit in". fit into what? as long as i can fit into my fav pair of jeans, nothing shud matter, right?....right? we're constantly battling ourselves and others to prove a point, when the greater cause is ignored. what is the greater cause? somebody tell me cause i lost the plot somewhere along the way.

when most of us begin this journey, we seek. in these times of blantant advertising, can it be that we've missed what we were lookin for in the first place? and then we stray. is it accident? or the truth of greater forces? is it all a lie? what if the lie was the truth? the truth definitely lies in the lie. or is the other way round? why did i ever do what i did on that fateful day? did i not think of consequence? yes, i did. did it matter? yes it did. then why am i holding my head in despair? why am i fighting all that flows? why am i fighting myself?

when the fight ends, who will emerge victorious? i reckon, the truth that lay dormant in the darkness that the lie created.

"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity"