so we're at it again.

we dont even need outsiders.

bastards, the whole lot.


its the weekend and i wanna be stress free, hence i shall listen to my new playlist and give comfort to my liver with a bit of a binge trip tonite.

ill nino - I am loco
36 crazy fists - slit wrist theory
abeueda - don`t be a frog
acroma - motive
all out war - destined to burn
all shall perish - promises
all that remains - not alone
animosity - saved
another animal - broken again
arch enemy - incarnated solvent abuse
as i lay dying - forever
august burns red - a wish full of dreams
belie my burial - august underground
black light burns - coward
Bloodlined calligraphy - Shall we dance
brand new - the quiet things that no one ever knows
bring me the horizon - second heartbeat
buckethead (feat serj tankian) - we are one
caliban - the beloved and the hatred
cancer bats - pneumonia hawk
carcass - heartwork
carniflex - collaberating like killers
chimaira - indifferent to suffering
coal chamber - something told me
corrosion of conformity - albatross
course of nature - anger
crazy anglos - fade
crossbreed - saints of grey
Crossfade - No Giving Up
dark new day - bare bones
darkest hour - the sadist nation
Days of the New - Enemy
deftones - simple man
deicide - imminent doom
demon hunter - i play dead
devildriver - i dreamed i died
die trying - the 6th day
diecast - torn from within
down (ft pantera, corrosion of conformity) - stone the crow
dredg - penguins in the desert
dropbox - wishbone
dry cell - grape jelly
dry kill logic - paper tiger
earshot - wait
eighteen visions - paradise city
element eighty - pancake land
elysia - theocracy
emmure - a fist fight with dick tracy
senses fail - calling all cars
endo - simple lies
evergreen terrace - sunday bloody sunday
every time i die - pretty dirty
falling up_crashings - new hope
fear factory - replica
filter - hey man nice shot
five finger death punch - ashes
Flyleaf - Broken Wings
framing hanley - hear me now
frankenstein drag queens from planet 13 - the witch is dead
full blown chaos - so cold
Godsmack - Realign
hatebreed - i will be heard
heaven shall burn - destroy fascism
high on fire - turk
hurt - ten ton brick
i killed the prom queen - dream as hearts bleed
in flames - only for the weak
jimmies chicken shack ft aaron lewis - falling out
job for a cowboy - day in black
Killswitch Engage - My Last Serenade
kyuss - one inch man
lamb of god - omerta
lifer - swallow
machinehead - all the names
meshuggah - straws pulled at random
ministry - lay lady lay
monster magnet - negasonic teenage warhead
mortal treason - a call to the martyrs
mortal treason - feed on the weak
mortal treason - khampa nomads
motograter - suffocate
mudvayne - fucking determined
Mudvayne - Happy
NOCIVO - Esperanza
nonpoint - the wreckoning
norma jean - bringing a knife to a gun fight
norma jean - shaunluu
OperationRock - Hide Your Love
opeth - demon of the fall
overkill - the years of decay
pantera - 5 minutes alone
paradise lost - mouth
percance - sigo de pie
Pillar - Frontline
pin drop violence - get 'em off
pitchshifter - shutdown
postmortem promises - self righteous
priestess - performance
primer 55 - set it off
primus - my name is mud
pro pain - death toll rises
probot - red war (feat max cavalera of soulfly)
Project 86 - Me against Me
revelation theory - take away
Scars of Life - Purity
sevendust - denial
Shattersphere - Inside My Head
sick puppies - issues
silent civilian - wrath
skillet - rebirthing
slayer - bloodline
slipknot - duality
SOLNIC-Mascara
South_of_Nowhere-Correspondences
spineshank - beginning of the end
staind - crawl
story of the year - until the day i die
stutterfly - gun in hand
Submersed - Hollow
subseven - emotion
suffocation - blind torture kill
suicide silence - distorted thought of addiction
the acacia strain - the widowmaker
the agony scene - eyes sewn shut
the almost - say this sooner
the boy will drown - deepthroat isnt a m
the bravery - believe
the dillinger escape plan - sunshine the werewolf
the faceless - an autopsy
the prom kings - alone
thornley - falling to pieces
threat signal - inane
throwdown - declare your war
to die for - immortal love
tom morello feat wu tang clan - Ain't Nothing Da Fuck Wit
underneath the gun_the awakening - faceless
unearth - unstoppable
unida - left us to mold
war of ages - broken before you
widowmaker - killing time
winds of plague - reloaded
wolfmother - tales
zao - ravage ritual


most people i know wouldnt even get near this music. well, at least the bands write their own music, play their own instruments and they talk bout what life is really like. and it brings me some peace.

what say bach?

well somethings gotta give. i cant bloody well go postal can i now? but the thought is there.


outside of work, life has been good to me.

theres so much to write, so much to talk about....but for another time.

alls i kno is, its good to feel good. and i want this forever.

the future is HERE and i missed it.

if i said the last 3 weeks of my life were simply great, i would be lying.

it was beyond that. i have discovered, let go, cared for, drank like it was the end of the world, worked like existence as a whole depended on it, touched, was touched, looked deep into the eyes of.., opened doors, laughed, hated myself even more, learn to live with, walked to the moon n back, re-lived and came out bruised, fell........and i dont want it to end.

carpe diem